When I was applying for university, I had to write a personal statement around psychology for each of my applications. That was when I discovered psychodermatology. I stumbled across a TED talk on the connection between the skin and mind. It explained that there was an emerging field of science called psychodermatology that combined psychology and dermatology. The video explained that skin conditions are not simply a cosmetic issue, as many people assume, and in fact they can be associated with many psychological conditions, as well as impaired daily functioning and strain within the family.
The more I researched psychodermatology to write my personal statement, the more I felt seen. I finally felt there were other people who understood how horrible it is to have no control over scratching your body until you’re red raw, no matter how many times friends and family tell you to ‘stop scratching’. I realised other people knew the soul-destroying feeling that your illness is chronic and you will most likely be dealing with it on and off for your entire life. But these realisations also made me angry. I was mad that in all those hours at the hospital, being prescribed what felt like every steroid cream under the sun, and even stronger options such as methotrexate (an immunosuppressant), nobody had ever asked me if I was doing okay.
Obviously, the answer would have been ‘No!’ I was a moody teenager who couldn’t go five minutes without ripping her skin to shreds. But I remember going into those appointments thinking it was all my fault. It was all my fault that my skin was on fire, that my hair was falling out and that all my family was thinking about was my skin and any possible treatment that could help, no matter the cost.
So, after three years of university, I finally got the opportunity to complete an assignment on a topic of my choice. After a lot of deliberation, I decided to investigate internalised stigma within those with eczema, and whether it has an impact on rates of depression. The second aspect of my project was depression in those with eczema. This is a well-documented area of research, which clearly shows that people with eczema are predisposed to psychological conditions such as depression. However, there was no evidence of scientific research into the interactions between both internal stigma and depression in people with eczema.
In my project, I conducted a questionnaire that contained three sections, measuring the quality of life in people with eczema, the presence of depressive traits and internalised stigma associated with their skin condition. I contacted National Eczema Society and they agreed to promote my project on their social media platforms.